Karen Russell

Went to VCR for a daytrip a couple of weeks ago to take her 5 hour photography Q&A.... WOW...

She has a great way of putting it into words that just stuck in my head! I have take better photos since and without a flash! I can't wait to learn more!

The photo in the previous post was with my new knowledge and with my new 50mm lens!

Thanks Karen!

Today Carson

was such a great little helper. Started with wanting to make the salade of course he wanted to "chomp chomp" everything. We quickly had him settle for putting all the cut up pits into the salade bowl.

After I put the plates on the table he proceeded to add the forks (no knives needed it was fajita night) and said everyone's name as he went to their spots...

Mommy, Papa, Nana, Aunty (shannon) Daddy and me...

followed by the salt and pepper and dressings....

Then juring dinner he asked each and everyone one of us

'would you like more Papa, nana.... well you get the idea....

How's your dinner.... so on.... so sweet so polite and we just soaked it all in....

Love my little gentleman and gracious host!

A page

I think I need to create a page about things that are going on inside me. I have this picture of me with my eyes closed and I want to use that and explain how part of me doesn't want to be constantly remined my Mom lost her breast..... I just want to live behind my closed eyes. Selfish, probably, but it's how I feel.... Now that she has survived, it's about the living afterwards. Don't even get me started about how I feel about chemo and/or radiation....

Today I cried

I haven't really cried since Mom's been diagnozed. But this morning at 5 am when I said goodbye to my aunt, I just held on and the tears came..... My aunt said my Mom was lucky to have such amazing daughters. I hope I can give her enough!

I am having a really hard time with the fact my Mom chest is missing a breast. I have a hard time looking at the void.... my stomach does flip flops.

I hope she doesn't get the same feelings!