Aug 18th

Went to pick up Carson from my sisters and they were getting ready to go camping, so.... all the way home Carson was begging to go... I thought maybe I could leave from work on Friday but I was just too busy when we got home to pack and metally get around going. Laundry, creating flowers for KG class and dinner etc.. the night flew by. I just couldn't pull Carson away from his Dad and Papa working on the new truck in the hobby room last night, so it was after ten before he went to bed... He doesn't know why he created on his truck like he did LOL.... just started taping the holes.....picture to come

Hello

Anyone home ;)

This would be a great place to post my daily thoughts for my project life... less paper!

Yesterday I worked at the shop... what a frustrating day... I hate giving up my Wednesday to go, it's even harder in the summer to have Carson give up one of his rare days at home! I didn't get home till 4pm. But he was very happy to spend part of the day with Lyric and Aria.

Went for the chick ride, didn't want to, but was really glad I did. I get up those hills like a goat and alot of the girls were amazed... I'm slow and steady and strong is what they say. Made me feel good. We had burger and beers at Union to end the spring/summer season... Fall riding will start the week after school starts back up. I'm actually looking forward to crosscountry skiing for season two!

Digital Love

inspired by Jessica's class, but AW designed and created



lifted by created by me



lifted but created by me

AW original

This is an original...

So I have a opportunity to create albums for a photographer..... She originally was thinking paper scrapbooking, but I said absolutely not.... digital templates customized maybe.... so here I go creating and playing.... learning PSE and loving digital scrapbooking.... Some of these I scraplifted the layout and created the template myself.

I've taken two of Jessica Sprague's online classes.... SOoooo worth it!

I'm playing....

Playing aroung with PSE this is 18 x 8.... printed it up at home and put it up on Carson's wall!

I voted...

for the first time ever yesterday!!!! Now I know what alot of people have to say about that, but whatever I finally did it and I'm feeling pretty darn good about it!

I'm out of the closet!

It's amazing how good cleaning the closet feels. I boxed summer clothes, throw away, gave away and hung up the remaining clothes on new hangers! Well my clothes got new hangers, I re-used the big white ones (but all the same) for Ryan's shirts for now.





My inner Dawn and Cheryl were giddy and I have already taken the donation bags with the hangers to Value Village! Fly Lady would be so proud!

Gotta Run

So I've finished dinner and I'm working on my CZ project and Carson is watching Ben 10 AGAIN.....

Carson runs over

"soooooo whatcha working on there"

me "just a new scrapbook page"

C "good job there Mom"

looks up at me with an approving, loving smile and gives me a big hug, then it's

"Oh GOTTA RUN..." back to his Ben 10 on Ryan's laptop

melted my heart!

Little Man

This was written Sep 7/07, drafted never posted

Carson is getting so expressive with his face and tone of voice. Doing that looking up trying to make a concern face and using my words, like "deal" and "okay" and "sound fair" How about when he laughs and slaps his knee, head back: "that's funny mom"

He's a Gun boy... can't stop it... Totally into Star Wars right now. He's been playing the game for awhile now and watched the first movie last week. I picked up two Light Savers and Ryan and Carson were playing last night.... sounds were of course including in the playing.

Hello anyone there?

Excuses excuses..... My laptop has been in and out of repairs or the wireless just not working for so long and I hate being stuck in the office.... I'm using Ryan's now and I'm not going to find anymore excuses.

Carson's at preschool and I've just finished mowing the lawns. Mom and Dad have left and I have had a hugh itch to start scrapbooking. Started Cathy Z big picture class and I am working on a week in my life today. No excuses I'm getting it done..... I want to get it done.

Now I have 30 mins before I pick up Carson, the BEN 10 obsessed 4 year old.

Pictures

this is a great representation of Kal Barteski's class. this photo is from Jessica Mcdougals blog...

okay my pictures aren't very good to be honest with you.... I have great people shots which was a huge part of the weekend, but I want to share with you pictures that others from the weekend have shared, that to me, really represent the feel of the experience...

photos taken by Amy P....

below is my picture and I have stories to tell about some great ladies I met and I will have more of mine to share...

Inspired

Wow what an expierence on many levels.....






Travelling - well have all I can say is my flights were with American Airlines, need I say more. I now can say I'm an experienced one now...



Event - I'm not good with words anyway so trying to explain this last week would be impossible, but I sometimes forgot to call home and I didn't go outside for a full 48 hours LOL...



Women - the teachers were unbelievable, and the students were fabulous.... but Bill takes the cake!


okay I'm going to post more later, right now I need to finish downloading photos and sending them to everyone and Biggest Loser is on

Karen Russell

Went to VCR for a daytrip a couple of weeks ago to take her 5 hour photography Q&A.... WOW...

She has a great way of putting it into words that just stuck in my head! I have take better photos since and without a flash! I can't wait to learn more!

The photo in the previous post was with my new knowledge and with my new 50mm lens!

Thanks Karen!

Today Carson

was such a great little helper. Started with wanting to make the salade of course he wanted to "chomp chomp" everything. We quickly had him settle for putting all the cut up pits into the salade bowl.

After I put the plates on the table he proceeded to add the forks (no knives needed it was fajita night) and said everyone's name as he went to their spots...

Mommy, Papa, Nana, Aunty (shannon) Daddy and me...

followed by the salt and pepper and dressings....

Then juring dinner he asked each and everyone one of us

'would you like more Papa, nana.... well you get the idea....

How's your dinner.... so on.... so sweet so polite and we just soaked it all in....

Love my little gentleman and gracious host!

A page

I think I need to create a page about things that are going on inside me. I have this picture of me with my eyes closed and I want to use that and explain how part of me doesn't want to be constantly remined my Mom lost her breast..... I just want to live behind my closed eyes. Selfish, probably, but it's how I feel.... Now that she has survived, it's about the living afterwards. Don't even get me started about how I feel about chemo and/or radiation....

Today I cried

I haven't really cried since Mom's been diagnozed. But this morning at 5 am when I said goodbye to my aunt, I just held on and the tears came..... My aunt said my Mom was lucky to have such amazing daughters. I hope I can give her enough!

I am having a really hard time with the fact my Mom chest is missing a breast. I have a hard time looking at the void.... my stomach does flip flops.

I hope she doesn't get the same feelings!

Stuff

Man I hope that Ryan and his partner just take the leap and go on the own 100%.... I'm so tired of MY life being on hold cause his freakin partner has no balls..... Life is too short working too much for too long.

Going camping this weekend. I think it's our last. Best thing we every did was rent that site for the year!

I love the age Carson is at right now. I actually find myself wanting to stay at home more and more. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with my little man before, but have never wanted to be a stay at home Mom. Maybe I just want to be there cause we can do stuff together and I can still get stuff done and not get SOOOO frustrated with him. Now I'm not going to lie I'm thinking the "fun" stuff and well as the "have to" stuff.

Roxy's and I started Beginner L2 dog training. She does well on the stuff I work on with her, but I need to "heel" with her more and start really practicing on the "in front" downs..... We are also start agility training on Oct 6th.

Anyway just wanted to babble....

Oct 1

this will be the day my Mom has one of her breasts removed. On Aug 24th we found out my Mom has breast cancer..... when did we become one of the stats. Don't know how I feel except relieved right now...

Relieved because...

1) it was found out in the very early stages

2) it could have been much worse as she hasn't had a mamogram since 1991, yes that the nineteen century LADIES go get your BOOBS squeezed in that machine.

3) she doesn't have to have radiation or chemo!

Okay I'm also Freaked out because...

1) my Mom, Carson's Nana is the ROCK... so now

2) she smokes, drinks and doesn't eat properly.

More to come I'm sure.

it's FAMILY time

We had a reunion of family it seemed last week....

It all started with having Ted (my cousin who married Ryan and I almost 7 years ago) and his wife Deb and their four kids came to visit. We had them over on Wednesday and made them dinner. How wonderful to get to know them again! We had a really good visit even with us ALL in the house oh and my sister and her family joined us also!

Then on Sunday afternoon we went to my cousin Tammy's for a bbq cause a 2nd generation cousin was out from Winnipeg.... he's 23 now and the oldest kid of all us cousins..... so there are 8 boys and only 1 girl, my niece Montana! At one point all the boys were in the carport and it looked like the outsiders.... I took a picture of course. By the end of the day there was the rought housing and alot of them ended up in the pool! Got some GREAT photos.... I'll be busy tonight downloading.....

Gotta love summertime!

Camping

Well it's summertime and the camping has begun. I'm really enjoying the trailer parked at Little Dipper. I have lots of photos of course but I'm not home to upload them. I wanted to store a little something Carson said to Daddy the first weekend.

Ryan took the trailer up as we followed with Ginny and Lyric to start our week vacation.

After helping us set up for the first time, we were relaxing around the fire before Ryan had to head home to work the next day. I said to Ryan you should probably start preparing Carson for your departure.

Ryan "Hey buddy, Daddy's going to have to go home soon"

Carson "why"

Ryan "cause Daddy has to work tomorrow"

Carson in a sweet and innocent voice "oh well that's too bad for you"

okay now I know it's been said before but DAMN, THE THINGS KIDS SAY!

Carson

oh how the memories come back!